You’re lying in bed replaying the conversation, going over what you said and how you said it, trying to figure out if you came off wrong.

The thought of your partner being mad can ruin your whole day.

You feel high when they reach out, devastated when they don't. 

The pain you feel becomes something you know love can save you from. 

The love you desperately desire is one where you're finally chosen, you feel like enough, it's an unconditional fairytale. 

The moment it ends though, you lose everything.

Well, what about you?

You know this pattern well, you've lived it enough times to see it coming, but you still can't stop it. 

You abandon your goals, standards, and hobbies when love comes knocking. 

You stay too long because leaving feels like failure and being alone feels worse than the disrespect you accept. 

I know that finding the time to deal with your own issues is the last thing on your mind.

Years of being misunderstood and ignored have taught you to ignore your feelings and push through.

But being strong and caring for everyone else is so heavy.

The love you've been chasing is the love you need to learn to give to yourself. 

You’ve abandoned yourself.

There’s a term for being overloaded with stress and constantly putting yourself last: self-abandonment.

It’s so important to you to keep people happy and never disappoint that you’ve ignored everything else.

But you can only push away your feelings for so long before they break through the surface.

It’s taking a toll on you.

You can’t sleep at night with your mind racing, and you’re constantly exhausted.

It’s difficult for you to concentrate on any task for long, and responsibilities are falling through the cracks.

Finding the motivation to do things you once enjoyed is impossible, let alone to care for yourself.